I love hearing God speak. Most times when I hear Him I find that He can be pretty loud. Like when I'm reading the Bible and a verse I've read a hundred times suddenly has new meaning, or when it feels like a pastor is speaking directly to me or about something that's going on in my life in their sermon. It think of that as God yelling because He needs my attention...Perhaps I should have seen it coming or I didn't want to listen. When I feel like what I've read or heard literally hits me in the face I really realize how much God loves me and wants good things for me...and of course that I can't hide anything from Him. It's refreshing and that painful conviction is what I need sometimes. But I live for those moments when I feel something in my heart and know that was God speaking. Or a small thought enters my mind and I wonder where it came from but it gives me so much peace I know it had to be God.
Two Sundays ago I had such a moment. Miles was talking about getting involved in what's going on in the church and ministries, not just coming every Sunday like you're paying your dues. It doesn't seem very related to the sermon, but God told me to be content where I am and just put this peace in my heart.
I've been wanting to get involved with things but I haven't found something I really felt suited me or that I would get into just to get into something so I could feel better about doing something for God. I also like to think that being here might be temporary and I can up and go somewhere else whenever I want...Maybe I'll take off for Rome, or go back home or whatever, who knows? I like to think the options are there and I can take them at a moment's notice. I didn't want to commit to serving somewhere and then in a couple of months not want to do it anymore or go somewhere else...I don't just have commitment issues with boys, it's with everything--I just have a hard time settling on ONE thing, especially for an extended period of time.
I don't think God wants me to be continuously searching for the next escape. I need to keep my mind in the here and now and be grounded, not just dreaming about what could be. I need to think about where God wants me and how God can use me where I am. I'm in San Diego and I want to be here...I just need to start living like it.
14 March 2008
25 February 2008
It happened just like last time...
We went out to a Rock related event, (this time it was The Venue, last time it was Remnant), then we hung out and got food afterwards. We were only gone a few hours both times. When we get home I go to the bathroom and laura goes to the bedroom...and then I hear "Liko!!!" Yeah, more little guinea pigs in the cage, little bit of a bloody mess. This time there were 3. This is hilarious because I was just thinking today, (when I was giving Chessy a good pet and telling her how obese she is) "Man, it would be funny if you popped out more babies." Lo and behold...... They're really cute and soooo tiny. Apparently we can't read genitalia very well because we have a little bit of a mystery: Who's the daddy? Just in case, we took "Jasmine" out of the cage and renamed "her" Captain Freak-Out. He/She is freaking out in the box right now.
Possible names:
Pat/Patricia
Francisco/Francesca
George/Georgette
um, and Bryan...
We're going for names that can easily be changed to the other gender...since, as we said, we can't read genetalia very well....or else this wouldn't have happened.
So...anyone want a guinea pig??
Possible names:
Pat/Patricia
Francisco/Francesca
George/Georgette
um, and Bryan...
We're going for names that can easily be changed to the other gender...since, as we said, we can't read genetalia very well....or else this wouldn't have happened.
So...anyone want a guinea pig??
15 February 2008
[S.A.D!?] ...but I'm not sad!
In light of it being valentine's day and all, I thought it would be an appropriate time to comment on dating.
It bothers me how a lot of people seem to think that finding a significant other or special someone is the point of their lives, like having a boyfriend or girlfriend (or whatever) is what you need to be happy. I think it's a hideous lie from popular culture. It's like if you aren't dating, you're a loser! Someone must always be interested in you and if you aren't in a relationship you should have just gotten out of one, and looking for another one to try again. Laaame! Why can't you just be happy by yourself?
I've gotten a lot of comments, especially recently, about how I'm still single, how I never have a boyfriend or date a lot or things don't work out... I've had more than one friend ask me, "don't they have Christian dating sites or something?" Why yes, yes they do. I'm 23 years old, I'm not desperate! That goes right back to the part where people seem to think I'm not normal for staying single and I'd be happier or have a better life with a boyfriend. In 1 Corinthians 7:34 Paul says, "...An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband." I'm more preoccupied at the moment with figuring out what to do with my life and how to fulfill God's purpose for me.
What's even funnier to me is that even my church has to touch on this. There was a class advertised in the bulletin called "Single: Blessing or Curse?" It seems that so many people struggle with this idea that being single means they have a problem (and maybe they do...) but I saw that and said, "Blessing!" (easy answer) and was done with it...I could teach that class! I've come to realize that this is how God wants it for me right now and I'm actually happy about it.
I want to grow, I want to see the world, I want to see where God leads me & I don't want preoccupation with boys to hold me back. I want to discover where my heart and passion for serving God is and then, maybe, God will give me someone who has a heart and passion like mine too. Until then, I think I'm better off going it alone...
It bothers me how a lot of people seem to think that finding a significant other or special someone is the point of their lives, like having a boyfriend or girlfriend (or whatever) is what you need to be happy. I think it's a hideous lie from popular culture. It's like if you aren't dating, you're a loser! Someone must always be interested in you and if you aren't in a relationship you should have just gotten out of one, and looking for another one to try again. Laaame! Why can't you just be happy by yourself?
I've gotten a lot of comments, especially recently, about how I'm still single, how I never have a boyfriend or date a lot or things don't work out... I've had more than one friend ask me, "don't they have Christian dating sites or something?" Why yes, yes they do. I'm 23 years old, I'm not desperate! That goes right back to the part where people seem to think I'm not normal for staying single and I'd be happier or have a better life with a boyfriend. In 1 Corinthians 7:34 Paul says, "...An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband." I'm more preoccupied at the moment with figuring out what to do with my life and how to fulfill God's purpose for me.
What's even funnier to me is that even my church has to touch on this. There was a class advertised in the bulletin called "Single: Blessing or Curse?" It seems that so many people struggle with this idea that being single means they have a problem (and maybe they do...) but I saw that and said, "Blessing!" (easy answer) and was done with it...I could teach that class! I've come to realize that this is how God wants it for me right now and I'm actually happy about it.
I want to grow, I want to see the world, I want to see where God leads me & I don't want preoccupation with boys to hold me back. I want to discover where my heart and passion for serving God is and then, maybe, God will give me someone who has a heart and passion like mine too. Until then, I think I'm better off going it alone...
07 February 2008
I prolly shouldn't have registered Green...
I came across this cartoon and as cute and funny as it is, it makes a good point. Those 2 seem to be the only ones the media cares about (wait, who's running?? a woman AND a black!?! wow...) Excuse me, but have we forgotten where our focus should be??
I never really cared to know much about politics until this election, but with so much is happening and so many opinions flying around I've actually done my own research. No really, this is a big step for me. I'm over the whole Barack and I went to the same highschool thing--definitely not a good enough reason to vote for the man. I don't agree with a lot of things he supports. I'm not gonna go off telling you who I'm voting for, or who you should vote for, but I just encourage you to look at where a candidate stands on the important issues.
I never really cared to know much about politics until this election, but with so much is happening and so many opinions flying around I've actually done my own research. No really, this is a big step for me. I'm over the whole Barack and I went to the same highschool thing--definitely not a good enough reason to vote for the man. I don't agree with a lot of things he supports. I'm not gonna go off telling you who I'm voting for, or who you should vote for, but I just encourage you to look at where a candidate stands on the important issues.
03 February 2008
this weekend.
social.friday...
After my first day of true Antique Store action I wanted to pass out but I have my responsibilities to the kids so I didn't. Laura and I cleaned the cage (same old, same old) and went to the Living Room in Old Town with Caleb to see Shem and Tobias play. I'd have put in a website or something here, but i don't think they have one. They should though because they sounded rather good. At least, laura and I enjoyed them. They're playing at the Living Room in Point Loma 2/6 and back at the one in Old Town 2/8. I love live music.
saturday...
I always say that they're my least favorite day because I work 2 jobs one after the other, but they've turned out really fun in recent history. I mean, we got to see No Duh play at Rock Bottom brewery downtown. They're RAD and it was wayyy better than a club with just a dance floor and a DJ, cheaper than seeing Gwen Stefani and easier than trying to get No Doubt back together....and then having to pay to see that. The guys even did a little Sublime when Spen (Gwen) was changing costumes. They were so much fun! I love live music...
sunday...
I keep thinking that Superbowl Sunday is like a holiday...like stores should be closed or something. But no, the game's just on and it's a day like any other day.
I think in general, NY played pretty sloppy, but that last touchdown during the last 2 minutes was pretty miraculous so I forgive them. I was rooting for them and they won, all that matters.
31 January 2008
past. present. future.
past.
characters...
Laura: The same roomate I've had since freshman year. A best friend. Travel buddy.
Cristy: The new roomate. In her last year at Point Loma studying lit/journalism.
Mike: Loma friend. Cristy's boyfriend. Our 4th roommate, essentially.
Drew: Friend/co-worker at Jamba.
Chessy: My adorable bear faced fattie of a guinea pig. Otherwise known as my child. Grandma is proud...
life...
Well, Laura and I couch surfed all summer and continued to do so when we got back from europe while we job/apartment. It was eventful. We spent a month down in Eastlake with our Pseudo-parents (Jamie and Marrissa's parents) sleeping in Mar's room while she was working at a youth camp. Then we spent a weekend at Laura's friend Angela's condo in Mission Gorge. Then we spent a week and a half in Jonathan's empty room in Clairemont before he moved down to attend UCSD. And lastly, we slept in Amanda and Monica's living room in Serra Mesa until we could move into our new place. We've been all over! The place we ended up signing a lease for is in the Loma Portal area as we refuse to call it Ocean Beach. we are not OB people...we just like to visit. I got a random call from my friend Mike who said his ex needed someone to move in soon as her old roomate was leaving and she liked living there. At the time we were still job hunting (which prevented us from getting any other places to consider us...) so it was providential that her older brother was set to be our co-signor.
social...
Since my home church, The Rock, moved into it's massive new building, things have been interesting. I decided I wanted to be more involved because now there's no Point Loma bubble to keep us occupied. We started going to a young adult group called Remnant which was cool because it was full of people our own age. new people. I love new people! We also started attending the 7pm service because, again, there's more young people. Now we have a group of people that also attend that service that we hang out with afterwards and sometimes other times during the week. It's been fabulous hanging out with non-Loma people. I also took a class on basics of the faith and learned a lot of things I previously had misconceptions about.
work...
When the job search seemed endless and the interviews all seemed fruitless we decided to apply to Jamba Juice Point Loma where our friend Drew worked. We figured he could put in a good word for us. Needless to say, we were hired and started working part time at jamba juice. It's been fun.
bible...
Since things were hectic and unstable, yet full of endless possibilities, I was really just trying not to worry and learning to trust.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid" ~John 14:27
present.
characters...
Amanda & Monica: We go to their house every week to watch Gossip Girl and America's Next top Model. Piña coladas? Yes, please.
Mark: From Maui, but as white on the inside as me. Because of this he has been appointed "new best friend." A freshman that hangs out with grads, how cool is he?
Cita: My boss at Artes Medical. She loves me. Tells me I "eat details for breakfast," and explains everything like you're 7.
Daniel: The crazy kid I met at Rock Youth. Hated on Angels &Airwaves with. Bonded with over french fries at In-N-Out. Affiliated with Invisible Children.
Marcus: The Philly-born crazy kid that excites everyone's lives. Also affiliated with Invisible Children.
Jasmine & Triscuit: Chessy's illegitimate offspring. Jasmine is crazy and still lives and home while Triscuit has moved on to bigger and better things (Jack's house).
life...
I watch lot of DVDs. I spend my friday nights in with fun activities like cleaning the cage.
social...
Drew got me going over to his house weekly to attend "community group" that is affiliated with his church, The Flood. I still have to work on finding a bible study but right now it's cool to hang out with a group of like minded people (some of which I've known since freshman year) and meet cool new people.
work...
In November (or late October, I forget already) I got a temp job working at a bio-technology company called Artes Medical, Inc. that makes wrinkle filler. (It's the first FDA approved non-resorbable dermal filler for use on the nasal-labial folds.) I was first hired to take care of their rebate program (data entry and mailings) but now I do a bunch of other stuff too. I got named Marketing Assistant since I do so much stuff for the whole department, not just the rebates. It's been interesting. I hated it at first but now I'm getting to know my co-workers (or getting used to them...) and it's more fun to be around them. I even got to go to the company Christmas party. (ooo!) I made Caleb come as my date. We took pretty Prom-esque pictures.
bible...
"We know that we have passed from death to life because we love our brothers. anyone who does not love remains in death. Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him. This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how an the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth." ~1 John 3:14-20
I'm reading this book called the Great Lovers Manifesto which talks about Godly love and it's characteristics because loving people with our selfish nature is actually really hard to do. I mean, love EVERYONE. Even stupid people. And people who suck. And people who can't drive and cut you off on the freeway. Not just your friends. Everyone.
future.
characters...
Jack: Essentially gave me her old job. We graduated with the same degree...and are both doing loads with it!
Candace: Owner of the antique store. out recovering from heart surgery.
work...
I start a new job at an antique store called King & Company up in La Jolla tomorrow. The owner does interior design and her son makes custom lighting. I get to be the computer girl (quickbooks, entering design time, deposits...) because Jack is going full time at her other job and they needed someone ASAP. I was available. I shifted my days at Artes to Monday, Wednesday and Thursday and will work at King & Co Tuesday, Friday and Saturday. Ew. Now I know it doesn't sound like interior design, but it's the grunt work. I'm considering this a learner job. Candace says that this kind of job teaches you a lot about the field and makes you consider if it's really what you want to do or not. It could turn into Or No, who knows? I'm a jack of all trades and a master of none. I like it that way.
characters...
Laura: The same roomate I've had since freshman year. A best friend. Travel buddy.
Cristy: The new roomate. In her last year at Point Loma studying lit/journalism.
Mike: Loma friend. Cristy's boyfriend. Our 4th roommate, essentially.
Drew: Friend/co-worker at Jamba.
Chessy: My adorable bear faced fattie of a guinea pig. Otherwise known as my child. Grandma is proud...
life...
Well, Laura and I couch surfed all summer and continued to do so when we got back from europe while we job/apartment. It was eventful. We spent a month down in Eastlake with our Pseudo-parents (Jamie and Marrissa's parents) sleeping in Mar's room while she was working at a youth camp. Then we spent a weekend at Laura's friend Angela's condo in Mission Gorge. Then we spent a week and a half in Jonathan's empty room in Clairemont before he moved down to attend UCSD. And lastly, we slept in Amanda and Monica's living room in Serra Mesa until we could move into our new place. We've been all over! The place we ended up signing a lease for is in the Loma Portal area as we refuse to call it Ocean Beach. we are not OB people...we just like to visit. I got a random call from my friend Mike who said his ex needed someone to move in soon as her old roomate was leaving and she liked living there. At the time we were still job hunting (which prevented us from getting any other places to consider us...) so it was providential that her older brother was set to be our co-signor.
social...
Since my home church, The Rock, moved into it's massive new building, things have been interesting. I decided I wanted to be more involved because now there's no Point Loma bubble to keep us occupied. We started going to a young adult group called Remnant which was cool because it was full of people our own age. new people. I love new people! We also started attending the 7pm service because, again, there's more young people. Now we have a group of people that also attend that service that we hang out with afterwards and sometimes other times during the week. It's been fabulous hanging out with non-Loma people. I also took a class on basics of the faith and learned a lot of things I previously had misconceptions about.
work...
When the job search seemed endless and the interviews all seemed fruitless we decided to apply to Jamba Juice Point Loma where our friend Drew worked. We figured he could put in a good word for us. Needless to say, we were hired and started working part time at jamba juice. It's been fun.
bible...
Since things were hectic and unstable, yet full of endless possibilities, I was really just trying not to worry and learning to trust.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid" ~John 14:27
present.
characters...
Amanda & Monica: We go to their house every week to watch Gossip Girl and America's Next top Model. Piña coladas? Yes, please.
Mark: From Maui, but as white on the inside as me. Because of this he has been appointed "new best friend." A freshman that hangs out with grads, how cool is he?
Cita: My boss at Artes Medical. She loves me. Tells me I "eat details for breakfast," and explains everything like you're 7.
Daniel: The crazy kid I met at Rock Youth. Hated on Angels &Airwaves with. Bonded with over french fries at In-N-Out. Affiliated with Invisible Children.
Marcus: The Philly-born crazy kid that excites everyone's lives. Also affiliated with Invisible Children.
Jasmine & Triscuit: Chessy's illegitimate offspring. Jasmine is crazy and still lives and home while Triscuit has moved on to bigger and better things (Jack's house).
life...
I watch lot of DVDs. I spend my friday nights in with fun activities like cleaning the cage.
social...
Drew got me going over to his house weekly to attend "community group" that is affiliated with his church, The Flood. I still have to work on finding a bible study but right now it's cool to hang out with a group of like minded people (some of which I've known since freshman year) and meet cool new people.
work...
In November (or late October, I forget already) I got a temp job working at a bio-technology company called Artes Medical, Inc. that makes wrinkle filler. (It's the first FDA approved non-resorbable dermal filler for use on the nasal-labial folds.) I was first hired to take care of their rebate program (data entry and mailings) but now I do a bunch of other stuff too. I got named Marketing Assistant since I do so much stuff for the whole department, not just the rebates. It's been interesting. I hated it at first but now I'm getting to know my co-workers (or getting used to them...) and it's more fun to be around them. I even got to go to the company Christmas party. (ooo!) I made Caleb come as my date. We took pretty Prom-esque pictures.
bible...
"We know that we have passed from death to life because we love our brothers. anyone who does not love remains in death. Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him. This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how an the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth." ~1 John 3:14-20
I'm reading this book called the Great Lovers Manifesto which talks about Godly love and it's characteristics because loving people with our selfish nature is actually really hard to do. I mean, love EVERYONE. Even stupid people. And people who suck. And people who can't drive and cut you off on the freeway. Not just your friends. Everyone.
future.
characters...
Jack: Essentially gave me her old job. We graduated with the same degree...and are both doing loads with it!
Candace: Owner of the antique store. out recovering from heart surgery.
work...
I start a new job at an antique store called King & Company up in La Jolla tomorrow. The owner does interior design and her son makes custom lighting. I get to be the computer girl (quickbooks, entering design time, deposits...) because Jack is going full time at her other job and they needed someone ASAP. I was available. I shifted my days at Artes to Monday, Wednesday and Thursday and will work at King & Co Tuesday, Friday and Saturday. Ew. Now I know it doesn't sound like interior design, but it's the grunt work. I'm considering this a learner job. Candace says that this kind of job teaches you a lot about the field and makes you consider if it's really what you want to do or not. It could turn into Or No, who knows? I'm a jack of all trades and a master of none. I like it that way.
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